revelation

Okay so something just occurred to me out of the freaking blue....
I have always wondered if it was just me, if I am such an unreasonable bitch(which if you knew me you'd know I am one of the most giving, open and accommodating people), if I just won't try, if he really wasn't that bad. Oh freaking dog! I have driven myself crazy about it.
Today while I was doing some schoolwork (yes, I have finally gone back to take a few classes) it occurred to me..... if it were just me who thought he is a douche then why when his workmates met me they almost all said the same thing...."Oh, I'm sorry for you." and they'd finish, "For being stuck with him. How do you do it? I'd kill him by now." It isn't just me!!!!! Holy fuck!!!!! If I'd only clued into the obvious before I could have saved myself so much guilt, agony and that sort of crap I've been subjecting myself to. WOW!
Now back to your regularly scheduled programme.