been

How you been doing?
The question if asked of me between now and then would have and could have been answered better and room to improve.
I have found the speed bump in the past few days. Ironically as things are improving.
I'm not looking for your sympathy. Nor for you to answer it or figure it all out for me.
I just wanted to tell someone, I just want to lay my head down and cry. I really could use a set of strong arms belonging to somebody who loves me to hold me right now. It would solve nothing but I wouldn't feel so alone in the universe.
And I spend tonight fighting against waves of sadness in a trap of my own creation.